Tiping to my little trick my writing is so quick and slick straight from the tip of my finger. Rhym try to do it like me ill be on it like all you getting burgers at sonic, kinda ironic I like them too, so why do I do writings and lines that are way beyond my time, I guess maybe to set something kinda like a test but don't be frighten this ain't the wild west and its not my best, maybe some see me as a pest but ill finish the rest I hope my words make people blessed, cause my goal is to type without fealing anythings left in hope ill inspire you to go after your dreams instead of sitting in a steady stream, anyway I mean I could do thiss all night but I got a truck and thAnks giving to attend

i am a writer, a lover , sometimes a fighter, i make someday's brighter, and i love those close to me even tighter, i overcome my trials, and stand up when needed, i press on even if there is nothing for me to lean on, and i do my best to smile when i am in pieces , i effect the world around me with the choices i bring, and i give thanks to my rightful owner and King, i am in the book of lambs, and i have a mighty height at which i stand, my words my seem little and sometimes a riddle but surely i am not playing a silly fiddle cause God made me more then little, my passion is to preach, and to reach to the weak, a up lifter i shall be someday it will be out for all to see, but be sure to know it was not me, nope it was his glory and majesty.

night peeps  just wrote 2 good writings in like 10 so think i need a break haha maybe i am a little cocky

mom there is no time for a grief as great as your's , and there is not a day that will go buy i am not yours, i think of you every time the sun rises and even when the moon arrives, my mind fills with memory's of your love and compassion if i had one wish it would be to have you everlasting, know that i am the same kid you raised me to be exactly how you would see me , someday soon i will see you again and all of us will rejoice a cheerful noise for God has brought us together again

I thought that I was the only one but I figured out that its like I got it double at least I stay out of trouble, sometimes I grab a shovel keep diging just because the devil has me believing that it is the only way. Lately I've put down that broke up rubble tired of being suddle like I am stuck in satans little puddle but now I am done cuddling with the enemy its time to see, open up my eyes to see there wicked lies and evil truth is evil never dies, but I got to try so I look to the sky the King is my salvation leading me from my temptation and pulling me out of frustration giving me peace without condemnation , he has beckon me and has never forsaken me so shall it be a life of his it will be

When you have walked a road of complete destruction, your wisdom builds your character, your reaction speak for you, And your hope keeps you going, the words of others that hurt begin to fade, and the pain that use to eat you alive makes you stronger, the tears from your eyes begin to dry, and your love is blazed into your heart, your passion is noticed, and your will power is never shaken, your God is shown in all you do

I'm not a saint just a man with his head on straight, if I sin God knows my fate the worlds view is as faint as mine, but be assure I am not blind my choices are mine to make, so be sure before you make a mistake in judging me cause we are all sinners in a confused state

stop take a step back get ready to react cause your about to get the facts, you see God brought me back picked up all my sinful slack and told the devil to shut his trap, its like most these places been hacked what happen the word like, he need to walk through and give this place a slap on the face with how much this place is in a race to be selfishly indulged inside of its own little mold that i...t believes will hold but trust me that truth has already been sold when the world is no longer full of what you call gold and all your profit has been sold and then you get old , there is nowhere to run no amount of cash can help you from the death that is caped on us so I must say today you better think before you are covered in your own desires and cast into eternal fire.

man my rap is on tonight all that in like 5 or less I better take it easy

this is a mad world version of mine but not all the way finished but I just wrote just now so its scratchy at best

I walk around and see these faded faces unsaid graces forgotten places? what happen to the joy we once knew how did God become just a side view how can we fix what we cant see how much mercy how much suffering is needed to be set free o don't you know ,

and every tear of every person every child is watering the world with all its sorrow why must we fall for the enemy I know that we can change , and it might be strange but sometimes I feel like dying but I know that my King our Savior holds us dear so I will say.

I shall stand in this sad world and I shall praise his name and be glad even though this is a sad world o how I will strive to be what he would want.

not a lot of people can keep at beat like me or have the eyes to vision the things I see that's why I feel God made me and he is in me bringing me words I would have not found if not for him putting them in me

So you seen my trial ? My post but now its time for me to boast, cause though it took me till my knees to see the trust I need so that I could be healed, though the enemy plucked at my flesh, the high King picked me up off the ground and lit the fire in me , so I am ok and I will be cause his Love is strong and I declare healing, no matter my trial or my feeling ill will never turn away nor will I ever stop believing in him.

This is why I was made a soldier for him, tough as the come and no  matter the pain I stand and declare him victorious.

Now its time to pick up my Faith and lift those who need me up
Lets just say I am back not on my own strength  but by grace let him rain forever !!

Don't give up remember you serve a better purpose then the world marks you for, your unique and if there is hope for me there is for for you !

I am a good guy, you can see it in my eyes I got my things why would I lie? And yes I am shy but when I pick up the keyboard and I here his words coursing through my vains, and his breath breathing in my chest I feel so clean, maybe I see things differently but atleast I am me what is my life gonna be lets just wait and see.

I have had many test but i still clame myself blessed rap in his arms so warm and safe I feel like no harm can effect me, cause I am free from the enemy just as simple as taking a pee haha silly me , that's my humor cause life is tense and glumor but I am saved from its wicked ways man if you could see the way I do when I type just no I am always there for you and family anytime just say ill be on it like its my job with no restrictions so true and God will remove your addiction

my writing instagram edition/short and sweet
Jesus freed us , and he helps us put back the pieces that are heart lost during life's test, but hold in there cause the best is yet come God is gonna have you on the run when he bring's your purpose to the surface you will be laying out verses not... only in churches, but in the streets were you will help the weak so pick up your feet and give it all you got for a week and see how your needs will meet beyond your expectation , when you get in to a serious relation with the maker of all the creations its beyond any world sensation knowing he is your love and motivation. stand up for your belief don't let the world blur your vision and make you get caught up in bad decisions God hits with precision to save your from the devil's evil vision that is why our God was risen to keep your from satans prison.

Satan try to stop me you feel like your on top of me but seriously you have nothing on me, cause God owns me and he never leaves my side and when he looks at me its with open eyes even when I cry he warms my tears and says hush my son there is nothing to fear, listen and hear my voice so clear and loving , he wants me for me so enemy I suggest you flee

My life is like a emotional rollercoaster but God showed me that he can hold me and now i feel like I am on top of the world , I've seen it the thing in me I always knew he own me though there was something I been missing , which was his blessing, love, and affection thinking about him has become a addiction not suprising since he held me before and his resurrection I call getting change not in a strange way but in a not ordinary play of his ultimate display on that day he died so that you could be.

Straight out of my heart and from my finger tips I bring you incouragment that should make you feel more fulfilling cause God is sustaining the goodness in me so he can help you out of your pain and suffering cause all he wants is you 

I been down that road depression is my middle name confession is my daily session, but don't be so down God sticks around he can help you out and make you sound and put your feet on solid ground, your unique not weak so let your mouth speak the words he has for you that is so sweat

If I wake up and smile just for awhile, I believe it would be worth while.

If I bless some besides me, i think it would change them and th could see this life was ment to be.

If I fight for what is right it might help this world unite.

If I hold her tight and love her right she will be my love my only one at night.

If I follow him I am sure to win, his mercy has washed away my sin

See devil I am sick of crap, my God he is bigger then that so lay off my back what's that ? Haha I don't haft to listen to what you say cause everyday is a new day, and Jesus layed his life down to say that I am his and he loves me the same even the way that I am.

I am done trying to win something that has already been won, he is built in the structure of my so your see I am destined for eternity brought up from bothing to be a light to the people that need him who is in me, I thank him for allowing me to be some one who people can see has been through tragedy but still stand for the life of humanity. You say I am a Jesusfreak ya that is me and I have that pride in me and I am not ashamed of who I was made to be

lately my writing has been rap, i can't rap it so i just right it, been listen to some m n m.

fuel me please keep on doubting me because seriously there is no stoping me my rym's are straight out of standard times, i know you can relate this is not a debate my words are to speak to all even the people that know what is like to fall and be kick while down hear that sound ? of those haters all around, forget em the got nothing accept false ground tide up and bound to there own mind set.

reflect this is about to get preset like johnny depp on set , the can try to out act you and me but honestly this not a act that's a fact truthfully it's much more then that, so relax what's that you have on your back drop the stress and be blessed i confess my word's are of a man depressed i don't mean to always confess what i am thinking to all you i need to give it a rest.

here is a little free style for light and hope

you see that light ? in the middle of the night star struck by the sight of his might, you can feel his presence so much your chest is feeling tight, but don't fear fold into his arms he will give you wings to fly , i don't deny i have been mad at the King in the sky, but me and him are straight there is no debate i hope you can relate , he has brought me through so much never leaving nor forsakes me and i am so glad he accepts me even through my tragedy, that is why i seek him and this is why i believe in him.

i work for my bills

i spread the word faster then a forest fire

i got faith

i help out at my church

i tryed i job and believe me i did not give up if people would stop pretending to know the pain i have the would understand.

my fort minor remember the name version. 

or those of you out there that want to know what it is like to believe , its like this.

this ten percent trust, fifteen percent word five percent courage, fifty percent Faith 
and a hundred percent reason to remember his name.

he does not want the hate he just wants to be heard, weather its from you mouth or your heart,
his love is unlike everybody else, alone in spite some people refuse to know him, but he still loves em,
he knows your name, its not about what you have done, your save by the son its already done,
focus on the son , so his word can spread like the sun that means when he moves around talks picking it up.

the devil who is he anyway? he talks to much, never stopin his relentless attacks, but many mistake him as not a threat
but he is the master of destroying the weak, now it all connects don't trust him he has no respect he is only focused on
on making you a wreck, his plan is beyond reach and when it all unfolds we must hold on to what we know.

this is twenty percent prayer
80 percent PAIN
ill be a hundred percent clear God is real, who would of thought he would send his son to consume the flame
and i heard him spreading the word , this is not a game messiah is his name came back took his people by suprise
he loves you why do you have the stupidest excuses, he is the truth now everybody is praising him from the rooftop
i heard he is even letting people into his kingdom.

they call him KING of the jew's and he is shining light through you making you feel hot, found him shocking everyone
on the block! he is just and he is right, the type people want to glorify his name, and haters try to block,
from the start he has been in the making of this universe, he has a Father that leads him in his time, there are
equaly stoked to see you succeed.

he is not your every God on the block, he made you and he was always on top
he knows how to work miricales making the dead walk, he often gets flase thing blamed on his name
but he stays the same, he is the living God give him sometime and he will give you the proof, him
and his angels ar known all around the are dedicated hundred percent

nobody knows why he loves us so much or why he died to save our lives, its seems like he always has you on his mind
because he works on saving you all the time, your design was written and he said it is fine, without even trying
how does he do it ?

this ten percent trust, fifteen percent word five percent courage, fifty percent Faith
and a hundred percent reason to remember his name.

this is twenty percent prayer
80 percent PAIN

this is twenty percent prayer
80 percent PAIN

this ten percent trust, fifteen percent word five percent courage, fifty percent Faith
and a hundred percent reason to remember his name.

On my way from helping at lifepoint, first though, I brought y favorite gym shorts there, but I was not aware of painting, so I got it on my shorts, then said its ok, if I am doing this by faith, God will replace my shorts.

So I left to walmart, when I pass through, I saw some people at home depot , a worker lady and a older man, I drove pass, and then I felt like God tug my shoulder, I ...turn around and went back I rushed over and said you need help?. I helped them load 50 blocks , the the lady laughed and said you need a job here, so I said would you like one of my dads website card he just published a book, she said I'd love one ill follow you back to your car, on the way back there was another older gentlemen that need help, I said ill help you out, so me and the work jessica, help load his stuff, I got done and the man turn and handed me a 20$ bill, I said what is this for he said lunch. I turn and looked at jessica I said if you step out in faith you will be blessed. She took her glove off and shaked my hand, she said thanks so much then I gave them both a card, she then said are you where you Coming in? I said no I just happen to see you guys as I was driving by , so I helped, she said are you serious? As she stood in unbelief, I said you don't see help anymore and I love to help people I got it from my dad and familySee More

you see i did not get the normal life that you see, grown up by age 15 , seen all there is to see by 7 i mean literally , fought the enemy since the day this world had heard of me i still am in the same battle it used to be just cause no one sees does not mean i am not struggling, most kids my age would not be standing not even giving a helping hand, see i know what it is to lose all you have, i ...got the wound of losing the one you love, i know what its like to feel worthless and to be broken and i know what its like to be forgotten, is this shocking nope i stop being shock the day i fell down and stop.

biggest story on the block, Faith like a rock, i keeping going none stop, i know how some people feel when the want it to end, i have been down that thread, wishing i was dead, even tempted to kill myself over this period of time, but that is in the past but i know if i did not know God i would have a long time ago .

i know how it feels to feel worthless useless and like your failing the people around you, i know to much how it is to hate yourself, cause i have spent most my time since i could remember doing so.

i am not a man of steel or a perfect example i struggle and fight with enemy i don't devote as much time to God as i do myself. i lust, i say bad words.

and to be honest i am just so dam tired i have put everything i have this last few years into this life, yea maybe i don't work 100% of my life and i play a lot of games, just cause i don't do surtain things does not mean i don't have hard times or a hard life.

i wake up extremely tired i got to bed tired, i think 100% of the time about my mistakes and how if i could just change i could be the person everybody thinks i should be, i am brain shot, heart broken, wounded, hurt , upset confused, angry, disappointed , sad, depress.

but if there is one thing that there is no way in hell anything can remove from me is my Faith, yea i am not the saint, but i spread the word of God i carry me weight with my shirts and bumper stickers and i never turn my back on him, i stay strong through it all
not including all this bull crap happen by 18, so next time someone pulls the bullshit about i should be working i should be doing this or that, take my shoes and start freaking walking.

i love God i have Faith i have a heart for people. but sometimes it seems like everything around me is supporting the enemy's plot to defeat me

yea i said bad words, i am a adult my facebook, and i am entitled a few words now and then.

night people if this was to much honestly i am gonna be straight out now, i am done with this little girl crap, working my writings around everybody's feelings !!
and gosh i cant wait to be out of pain its driving me crazy

Umm this is my presentation. .... guess what's back again the loss of a love one that sick defect , when it hits I'm a wreck cause it all reflects and I feel like I am about to lose all respect when I go into secret side of mind.

Just plane and simple gonna tell it how it is, cut the kid stuff this is not a act, infact its way more then that tell her or him or them your love them, cause from my ...view you say its hard but you still have them, so stick to it and just do it, cause your not sure when you will lose it and you will be caught up in the sound of depressed music , why the enemy begins the fusing so the can start abusing you, cause, loosing somebody is like a eternal payne like your bleeding relentlessly so it maybe time is a significant thing, but believe me when it hits you it breaks you and shakes you and makes you feel like your dead inside

we need to rise because the enemy is stealing the real me the real you, the new thing is to give up because this world is centered on what you feel, tell the devil no deal! because God has a place for you and it is marked as living for eternity price is free so don't wait to be a new you that can change people around you.

time makes us blind we spend most of it worried how we will get by , and h...ow we have not much left and we forget that his death has set us to another breath, so don't list to nonsense put up your fence of defense and bring the peace to these peoples mind set, rest later , because satan is no
negotiator, he is a infiltrator and he will destroy your plans for later.

stand up this is not a pity party the enemy is not a joke he will slit your throat as soon as he can reach your boat , ruthless and no mercy, so pick up your word and your Faith and deny his presence in your life

how do you end up at the top with all you wished for, then you get a knock on the door and your end up living on the floor with many regrets and to much lost to bet feeling upset from all the chaos, just want to grow up a normal kid with normal life messing up everyday and night like its part of a act when the truth is it is attack from the enemy that lies and decieves every move you make until yo...u brake.

then when you think its gonna get better depress righting crazy letters and thoughts of dying running through your head then you lose the one you thought would never leave now the grief is like a bridge into your darkess thoughts to much time to think not enough time to talke.

it may seem a shock how he stand strong in his beliefs and takes up his end and keeps on running the race, facing the facts and the wisdom he lacts, trying to keep his back straight so he does not become a fake.

or how he walks through every door no matter the pain and treats the people around like the the golden globe i am sure you been told it ain't my act and not my react its the truth is inside me that shine into people .

this world is broken and shaking and truth is the aint seen enough of me and one day i will have a strategy against the man who seek to defeat me and my plan that has been written in the book of lambs.

and people can try to wright the words like i do but its true there is only one me and so you see my unique ability is like trilogy and above psychology and all this mythology and you can say it is crazy but its comes from the God who made me and see he commands me and he made the world and he put you in it and he made your eyes so don't denie the words you read and know it is no lie

in need of food ? worried of ending up wothout it ? but i got news for you ! cause there is a Man you only had 5 loaves of bread! and two fish. and he fead 5000 thousand people and still had more ! are you in a boat in the middle of a storm and feel like your drowning, and your doing everything you can but you can't seems to make it out of the storm, well good news i know a Man you can calm the storm!!

God has people come to him and all the did was touch his robe and the got healed !! he can heal you too!

so don't be worried for the King of the heavens and the earth ! has no weakness and he long's to take care of you so do yourself a favor smile :)

i gave a word at my house church last night about forgiving yourself. it is one thing to forgive another person but to forgive yourself is a new thing. how do you forgive yourself ? let God show you how you can be free from this, the enemy can use this as a tool, if have not forgivin yourself it can often lead to sin, do to reminding you of it.

in zachariah , satan was accusing jeshua, of... his sin. but this happen, i the Lord reject your accusations. i have taken away your sin, and now i am giving you these fine new clothes.

God is well aware of are faults, but he does not hold us to it for he has already paid the price, for are sins.

take prayer in seeking true forgiveness of yourself so you can fully recieve God's blessing

You see the drape that covers me when I wake? The fog that covers the windows so my eyes can't see? Or the thick walls that block my ears so the can not hear? And the tape that covers my mouth so that I can't speak? Lord rip the drape away the drape that = the worlds lies! Blow away the fog that keeps me from seeing your miracles the fog= sin. Take your fist of anger and smash the ...wall down that blocks my ears so that I may hear, the wall that = Confusion. Pull the tape from my mouth so I may speak truth! The tape= hate dishonest= false truth= pride= jealousy = pain= anger= bitterness. For Lord we know not of what we speak. We can be blinded, or we can not hear, be covered by lies, but truth is when it comes down to it what we say and speak is were true desruction comes from. Cleanse us of are mouth

grant me one last thought i don't need to be mocked by a world filled with no time to pay for it's crime. there is enough time to die, waiting to. thinking about you Father what should i do, the motive of truth driving me through the roof , i can find a simple side of my mind, 24/7 i am on the line, everything is leading me to be find, but what if i don't want to be, what if i know that thing's are going wrong, i don't want anymore fake smile's and honest lies, sick of all of the tear's that fall and people that crawl to there last breath, i confess i deserve it all i know i do, but why can't this be fixed.

you see me as me, and i can be so much more running into every door which way is ok will i live today ?  maybe i should just let it go all of it is confusing a pit of cruelness , are we suppose to just sit smile and wave i guess i gave it another day to say i just want another way, instead waiting for more pain to come i can't take this no more.  i break out just to be put back, relax i can't do that i have been for to long , i watched the person i care about leave from this place and i know the only guilt is of myself i try to put it on the shelf but there is no off button in this place run's through my head like a cd or a dvd, playing in me, seriously just take me, and shake me this world has already succeeded in breaking me so please just hear me out, God i have no doubt that your the one, who made the sun and the son, believe me i ain't gonna run, unless it is to get to you, i am just asking what do i do, its to much for me but not for you, i trust you i just don't trust me.

i am caught up in my thought's the pain the enemy has left me lame, like a video game, i need to change but it is all so strange, spent my life behind a door now i am trying to go out on the dance floor, and show the world a new me so the can see you in me and be free

the devil throws his plot to try to stop me from getting to the top, i am typing none stop, praying throughout this walk, give me a moment to talk i got a lot to say today the Lord has taken this weight off my back and gave me time to relax i am sitting back, laughing at my enemy , cause see the thought the had me but God was holding me so you see the fear him in me.

hear my words, i am not no saint, or some man of steel who deals with what is so real, nope just a man listening to God's plan don't you people understand God is giving me words right out of his hand, man he is good you can take what has kept you in the lake of lies and fake word's and deny it is just a failed attempt for devil to try.

look into my eye its ok to cry, people look at you like your behind, like it ain't gonna change but it is strange cause that don't give God time to exchange what is plane and make you a new name , open up and see i am not the same this ain't me or something from this place , its a truth the proof of God putting a roof over my head, keeping me safe as i lay in bed, his name has lead me to a steady place of grace so just sit back and enjoy the show cause we are just getting started

when i was heading out today, i thought aww i don't need my keys but right before, i left i ran up and got them real fast
most people will say so you got your keys back big deal!, but wait there is more,
soon before i left sitting at a table i heard God say, that he is in the small stuff@ not just the big.
often we say no God is not in the small stuff! like helping us remember are keys or letting are food be fresh at are
most loved place to eat! but surely God is in everything and anything.
we often don't see it, we are to busy moaning over failure desires and storms in are life and we are to busy in are succes we
forget the tiny things. Thank God everyday! weather you woke up to a good day, your coffe tested better then usual
your phone bill is paid your going to heaven, people what it comes down to thank God everyday for what you do have,
and for what you don't know you have !!

it takes a lier to see the truth, but a honest man to see his lies .
words are strong !  people say action speak louder then words ! but if this true then why is the world destroying its self over simple things that have been spoken or written, dont get me wrong action speak for themself !  but only a wise person  can understand that words cause just as much chaos and destruction

im not mad just sad, it took me this long to figure out what i had, really its my bad, i am just glad. my eyes open up your probly like what? but sit down and hold up cause i got words that say enough i should not haft to be in the rough, people say tough, well guess what i am not gonna shut up i am gonna fix what i started cause see i am a man who joined the broken hearted.

i know what its li...ke everyday everynight and everyone says its gonna be ok but you go another way, this life is heavy there are no breaks, you got to take everything you make other wise you end up with to many mistakes, learn from your loss and pick up the cross , follow the King the one who gives everything for you and who adores you, don't push it away your not the only one today, that is fighting with this! so stop fighting the relief i know it feels like your giving up, but by letting go your showing how much you love them, don't mean you wont miss them, or that you wont keep wishing you had them back relax, God knows all that so let him take the cross of your back !

Everytime, take a moment to remember you, I forgot how real the pain is, I don't how much I can bare my heart, is slowly crumbling, my soul feels like its about to vapour away. This is not all I haft to say God if I could just have one more day, then I could maybe have all the words I need to say, but now she gone away and everyday is like falling off a cliff into place I never meant to be, I can hardly even see my mind is falling down into the deep point of view, its all just so real please take off the pressure in me!

MOM I MISS YOU AND NEVER WILL STOP MISSING YOU!

sit back relax, take off your backpack, and sit your jacket on the racket. listen to my peace of mind laying words like i am out of time, good thing you read this line
gonna pick somethings up, and show the signs the wonders, that are happen everywhere and anywhere dont bother to declare when, the one and only has already bared the pain that we cause in this world what a shame.
people open up, look in the sky , every one denies and confess its all a lie, but really we all die, how much can you, take before you break or end up drowning in a lake, from your mistake, its never to late to ask him to make,
you a child of him its a win win.  why so shy around the people that you see that have him in there eyes, why you feeling guilty if nothing is wrong hold on and come back don't step back he is right there so just, sit down listen up and here what he is gonna say.

people making it a joke but can't even right a honest note, and don't have any wisdom on the word that was wrote, find go out on your own, stay a lone, but remember satan will defeat you he will beat you, tell you that you are no good and that you shoud give up,
its hard your gonna have a lot fo scars ! this aint a trip to mars, arn't you a little concern what happens when you heart stops and your soul is still wide awake, its gotta make you shake.
wondering around like there is no purpose for today or tomorrow, playing it over with stuck up sorrow, believing that the world made you, when the world is the one who destroys you,  like stop and think just for a moment the world, has givin you nothing, but,  pain, anger, sadness, depression, lies !
cant you see the cry's of the ones in your life, so just give your life to Christ and you wont haft to think twice because he has place in his kingdom for everyday and everynight so get it right !

bring it to the top then stop, meet me down the block, lets break this lock with a rock, we aint gonna sit in a the midst of it, what is this we are holding in are sight that, just does not feel right, well the sin and delight of the devil and his wicked insight , stand with me fight hold on for one more night, for it is never to late to call out for his might, to pick you up out of this, Jesus ...is always in his prime so relax give him some time ! make sure you read this line before i declare it as mine.

push those demons back holding, onto the one i know has my
back just like that day and night like night light follow me left and right, he does not rest nope, but he does confess the good things that are in you and me giving us a chance to see the change that needs to be, so pick up your bag, stop with the drag and lets live like we know what is in the bag! salvati

I tryed to stand, so maybe the world would understand what I am writing down, hope it gets around town, just trying be the man I ought to be a man of integrity not a flee hidden under a tree, I am free from the man I used to be , so hard cause some people don't see I poor my heart out for all to read, like a open book pouring out honesty even in the midst of my tragedy, doing my best to get it out of me, cause you see its eating me and maybe if I could get out of my mind, then I can be the true man he called me to be

wait i got more to say, and not enough ryms to display, i guess ill just wing it and hope i stay in it, there was a time were this was all in my mind, but now i just find away to post it on my time line, you see its all good and great till its not late to go back to the date were you could relate, hold on here comes the break in the ach, of the words i say in my messages everyday anyway.

thanks for your support in my writing its all in God's timing, maybe it is down when it gets around, but i know it speaks out to you now, so give it a chance to stand out and you will find out it is truth not a nagative layout

psalms 88, A song; a psalm of the Korahites. For the leader; according to Mahalath. For singing; a maskil of Heman the Ezrahite.

I

2LORD, the God of my salvation, I call out by day;

at night I cry aloud in your presence.a

3Let my prayer come before you;

... incline your ear to my cry.b

4*For my soul is filled with troubles;c

my life draws near to Sheol.

5I am reckoned with those who go down to the pit;

I am like a warrior without strength.

6My couch is among the dead,

like the slain who lie in the grave.

You remember them no more;

they are cut off from your influence.

7You plunge me into the bottom of the pit,

into the darkness of the abyss.

8Your wrath lies heavy upon me;

all your waves crash over me.d

Selah

II

9Because of you my acquaintances shun me;

you make me loathsome to them;e

Caged in, I cannot escape;

10my eyes grow dim from trouble.

All day I call on you, LORD;

I stretch out my hands to you.

11*Do you work wonders for the dead?

Do the shades arise and praise you?f

Selah

III

12Is your mercy proclaimed in the grave,

your faithfulness among those who have perished?*

13Are your marvels declared in the darkness,

your righteous deeds in the land of oblivion?

IV

14But I cry out to you, LORD;

in the morning my prayer comes before you.

15Why do you reject my soul, LORD,

and hide your face from me?

16I have been mortally afflicted since youth;

I have borne your terrors and I am made numb.

17Your wrath has swept over me;

your terrors have destroyed me.g

18All day they surge round like a flood;

from every side they encircle me.

19Because of you friend and neighbor shun me;h

my only friend is darkness.

Me

we all fall for we are all sinner's, we strive in the darkness even when light is available we cry out, but when he response we fail to hear, we are caught up on fear, O Lord help us !

prayer

Help o God for i fall in darkness, and selfishness, but i know my true desire is you nothing else, sustains me , hear me !!

My life seem's calm and ready , why frankly steady, getting back my strengh aint like some public stack of everything i ever attack, breaking my back just to get a chance to relax, i am on the buttom looking up trying to find my way up, don't fill the air with crap life aint easy its as simple as that, i am not holding back no more here my words if the are to hard to hear must be, striking up so...me fear, cause i spit the truth read it and you will see the proof, the world has tangled me in a life that i imagine for me, now i am trying to get my eyes to see the true me the one God called me to be.

satan is taking my time, trying act like it is all find, i mess up and i am stuck on a place were i see my sinful face, but listen up ill be knocking him off me and making sure he don't mock me, i am man of integrity wait and see, ill take the enemy , and tell him all about me, cause i am not afraid no more i am shutting the door, to this place i don't care to see anymore.

busting out the cage, gonna take out my rage on the devil and his stupid game's, i rap for the one and the only, that is why when i write i never feel lonely, the lies of the enemy try to own me but the can't even begin to control me or keep up with the fact that God will never not own me, you see this is not a joke to me what i am about to say may make you think more about your way and everyday so here is what i am gonna say.

God lifts us up, but that don't me life aint hard, the world try's to cover your eyes with all of it's lie's, then by the time you open them up you feel like you should have kept them shut, you don't money tree and a note that has what your suppose to be, take to much fro granted only hearing what you hear, trying your best to avoide your fear, maybe that is just what you need, the enemy is trying to plant seed's of destruction leading you to your doom, so get up and push him back don't let that be, call out for the King and he will make sure your free from all this tragedy

so as you a probly thinking wy would i right a book of souls we only have one soul right 
well yes but the thing is before you find christe your soul is broken into peaces you think peaces ?? 
well like love trust lust giving are all peaces of your soul you must first find christ before you can make one soul wy because god is the key to happyniss so as i take you through this book understand that the peaces are one but not intill you find truth. 


the book of souls 
what has happen to this world feels like there souls are controlled what must we do for controll 
do we fight or do we not depends what you think where have you lost faith was it when you fell or when you blinked your eyes 
have i pushed hard anoff for the people around me better yet have you ?? sometimes we think there is no point to life are we here but can we make a point 
well thats your choice are you ready to make your relationship eith god what you want it to be ??? 


its time to take you thrue the book of souls 
first soul is love love is not something to play with it can change your friendship and life style 
love can also judge character love is a feeling for some one not a saying lovee is strong 
testing love is not easy it can be a path to hate depends on how you handle it decisions are what make it last when you marrie some one it can be for pleasure but for love 
when you get married you can also judge how long you love that person what im trying to say is your love tord god is it just a saying or is it true ??. 




soul 2 respect 
respect is tricky but its very powerful if do not have respect for people then you have none for god 
respect is how or what you do or the way you treat people can make people like or hate you 
if you want some one to treat you with respect you must first treat them with respect them even 
if you dont want to no matter how the treat you respect should grow so how is your respect tord god and people ??. 





soul 3 one of my most cared about souls 
trust. 
trust can hook to love and respect and trust is weather you love and respect and trust god 
without trust there can not be a new level to life question is do you trust or do you not its just like 
you trust your mom trust is very importan it can take your love and respect away so how is your trust ??. 




soul 4 receiving 
receiving is getting a gift a gift or word or even money god gives us stuff 
sometimes what we got to understand this is just as importan as any other soul if you dont receive 
then you cant get things god is trying to give to you its a blessing to get gifts so how is your receiving??. 




soul 5 giving one strong thing. 
you must not only get things but give things giving can be great way to make your life more happy 
god should not always haft to give he should be able to receive things you can give to him 
love respect trust worshiping praying giving your life to him 
giving can be a key to happy life so how is your giving. 




sould 6 accepting 
you must learn how to accept wy you ask ?? well in order to have the last 5 souls you must be willing to accept them you must be willing to accept god and people no matter wjat the have done or do a key 
to open many doors is to accept so how is your accepting ??. 




soul 7 
lust can make life terrible can make everything a tool of sex lust is how you accept things 
how you look think and hear things. things that cause lust porn people things like that 
the way you look at girls can also effect the way you look at god and your wife lust can make your wife a object also god a object so how is your lust ??.0 




soul 8 the key happyniss 
your probly wondering wy is happyniss the last soul wll because when your soul is broken and hurt and your peaces are lost the only way to make your soul and your life have happniss to make your soul one is through jesus christe 

you cant have any soul without happyniss 
wy because happyniss controlls everything love respect lust trust accepting giving receiving words thought and the way you live for god and the way you treat people so you see is all comes down to one soul happyniss so are you broken or are you whole have you checked your soul ??. 




thanks you for taking your time to go thrue this although the last is happyness people have difrent thoughts the reason happyness is last is because 
before you fine god when its in peaces you have not yet had the love of jesus the one true love but when you accept him your peaces become one a soul of happyness 

 praying for me cause i am conerned with the sin that pulls me so close see lord every time i look at you i get my mind lost with false hope of maybe what i have been doing is ok i tell people its all ok but inside i am being blown away and feel thrown away i am looking up at the sky wonder if your looking down wondering why maybe its all a lie maybe my mind is just stuck in line from all these real world lies and to many goodbyes will i ever have a peace of mind sitting in my room half lost crying looking for a truth in all of this before i fall into the abiss i play it like its cool but i look like fool feel like i got nothing but but my sin and filth maybe i should just forget the guilt before i foget where i was built

so i was sitting in the car talking about how i use to respond to people over xbox live. and i got a few words. before i use to get mad at them and fight back with them. but now i learned. that really when some one sends me a message like. God is not real. your stupid or  something bad. its really a cry for help the want to see how i respond. the don't want to say i need God. so the say something like that to see what i haft to say the want a response. the truth is you need the right response. like pastor bob said in the service i want to see what this guy has. i want him to show me. and i was thinking of imagine

if the heart just like Jesus had a boulder in front of it and 2 demons were guarding it and the had a seal on it. and the only way to move the boulder is by the word of the lord !!

some where in the dark of the late night. the stars shine like i peace of mind. for a show to be made of certain crime.

most of us do not see. do to are eyes being so blind to what hides inside are twisted mind. fear time maybe even a line. but don't ignore the wicked signs all around bed time... are eyes can see or so we say. maybe its just another day alone and away. or maybe its a day where you see just on the way of your mind when its at bay. blame your self for its  ways but don't forget who came your way. scream with rage and strike with fearsome swipes and all your might but make sure your doing it right other wise you might loose your eyes to the world's wicked lies 

see father i been learning all my simple stuff. like i am out in some crazy world of confusion with my mind on the line i pray you hear me and that ill be just fine as long as i can hold a rym your in my mind every time i take the time to see you even know i am blind. the world is not mine at least it seems though of truth of your proof i hear my fear but you hold onto me so dear and you show me you in the mirror everyday on the way to say my words to you so that i can show you that ill be by your side even through the tide. you can make wide till i realize whats truly in my vision of living . life on top of the world with your hand on me don't you see me for what i have done i know it is not much your like my krutch without you then who am i. i start cry everyday and night feeling straight from dark night of very hard life. some say i am not big enough trust me i know so ask you to be the one to send me home without hurt or sense of all the nonsense. your my hear my body and soul your the one who controls the very movement of spiritual  world. and you know its true when i look at you that my life is very sinful and i got nothing to hide i confess to everything i did that made you hurt and feel this very pain that is not a game i feel so ashamed. that ill stay right here till i can face my fear if it will show you that i don't mean to do these things. that pull me down on the ground all over my town in even on city ground. everything i see every time i speak. i hear every time i open my eyes i see it so i am asking will you delete it.

 the say God is not real cause the cant see him. i don't know about you but i have not seen the big bang ?? have you ??. HI have you seen any monkeys turning into humans. not that i know of. k thanks. any one see a alien put something in a monkey. or a whale walk on land. i have not seen any salmon running around so that's a good sign.  hey wait here is a rock on the ground. what so great about a rock. well by picking this rock up i can tell you dinosaurs lived 200 million years ago and that salmon did turn into a lizard. oh i see can you tell me when i wake up ??. 

you know i why would i want to worship i alien anyway and between you and me a think i would rather not get probed anytime soon... atleast its not on my list. and if i get sick of land can i go live in the sea maybe i will evolve into a salmon or maybe sea monkey not for sure... maybe if its not too much God does exist maybe he did creat us and loves us. that sound a little more closer to truth then well you know

yes i know you think you seen it all. and yes i know you believe that you got it all. have you ever open your eyes to see have you ever looked in the mirrior to see what you fear. have you ever thought maybe there was more. who are you living for.  

why you were dreaming laughing and playing with your friends i was fighting for my soul ya fighting for it. 

and i was dreaming of a new point of view to see what is in store for me.

i want to see the truth i want to see the truth behind you.

you think you have it all. and you think you are on high ground well i got news for you. i am sorry but your not. cause if it is for you. then it is not true what about the king. the one you made it all. he does not forget the people in the back or the people in the front. or does he look away from some one who has fallen to this world. well if your so much better then me

prove it to me.  you thought you had it hard but you don't know the word because while you smile around i am fighting for my soul.

why you were dreaming laughing and playing with your friends i was fighting for my soul ya fighting for it. 

and i was dreaming of a new point of view to see what is instore for me.

i want to see the truth i want to see the truth behind you.

I press my hand on the sand. And then I stand. There are so alike but so fare away from eachother. When I look at the floor I see a whole new thing. But when I touch the ground I feel a who'll new thing. When I smell. My food I smell it. But when I lick it I taste it. When I. Hear God it is beyond me. When I. Feel him its beyond all things. And when I love him it makes it all that much more.

ill be honest i lust who does not ?. i say bad words sometimes. i have seen movies i wish i did not. i have played games i wish i have not. i scrue up all the time. i have let alot of people down! i know that. i have had turn my back on God before and i regret it. i have spent most my life locked in a room by myself playing games i know that.  if Jesus was here i would tell him everything. cause yes i do not like the things i do. but there is know way on earth some one can say i am afraid ! i will take full blame for my action and things i mess up on. and i think every one should !. 

another thing is its funny what some friends say hurt!. and family. 

life is hard right now cause. its always.

i am not strong enough.

i am not skinny enough.

i don't read my bible enough.

i don't go outside enough.

i don't go hear.

i look like this.

my dreams are to big.

but one day all will see i will succeed in all my dreams

i will be a singer 

book wrighter 

pastor 

and no i will not be good in 1 but all i will be big in all. cause God put it in me and the day it comes i will run to the very gate the devil hides behind and i will knock on it. and God through me in this life time will shake the world through his Glory cause i may not show it but i love him and i am for him.  

and everybody says

your life is not hard you did not got to school

you did not go through that much.

you try spending countless hours alone dwelling on your sin.

losing your house that you loved so much

almost losing your mom.

losing some one close to you.

watching some of your family fall to the world and forget the one who called. them.

not seeing your brother that lives so far away.

not being a good enough person for what is in store 

knowing that everything you missed in your childhood do to what happen is gone

getting thrown head first into your adult hood with no choice but to get a life and stop being a baby.

man sorry people but i feel so far out of the worlds view that i am just lost

the only time i seem to get notice is because i am tall. if i was not i don't think i would be because i already not so much.

i spoke my heart for all to read no this is not bad it is ok people to vent your self to others i don't care who reads this. this is me and i am deap inside a Jesusfreak. i will show you some day 

thanks for reading don't take this in a bad way it is just my saying 

preach like a lion people you have not seen anything yet 

make me  a object. but i will deflect. make it a bet and i will make it regret. say its a threat. then it will put you in debt.

also i can't spell worth junk.  i did not make it all the way through school. i had trouble passing my permit test so yes i still don't drive and probly will not soon. i don't have a job right now. 

things are what the are 

i try to sing but it seems like i can't i think i am good if i could only sing loud.

but one day people will see 

thanks for hanging in there glad i got this out