Feel like writing something about you 2, mom it is so different without you, as I lay here wishing you'd be near, it's not your health that I fear cause I know God is holding you near, but it's my heart that longs for your comfort once again.

Grampa are time was short but it felt like forever because the bond we had, it was like we had already knew each other from the start, those days of golf and moments of laughter touched my heart and now I know your with my mom together in a song of praise waiting for me to arrive.

I lost you both in the best of ways to heaven you have gone to stay, there is no doubt that the Kingdom roared at your arrival 2 angels brought together see you soon!

I'm fine just beat up again, how can you explain what can't be named, life is life, it ain't easy and it ain't 100% cheesy.

Chains and shackles, set back and hassles , just too find a balance but everybody wants too see a difference, and be different, but I shouldn't have too fit other peoples, comfort to enjoy my life, I got sins and I carry em , when I'm dead I'll confess all of em.

the don't even try, think I washed up and dryed up, claim that I got potential but people treat me like a daily essential, weather it's intentional just want this world to eventually know, there is no just sit back and enjoy there is live or be killed

He got up, rebuked the wind mark 4:39-41.

Son daughter I ask for have I not made you in my image ?? Have I not Givin you authority of the land? Does the ocean not still at a point? 

My children I have Givin you power over the enemy through me, that not can stand against you as long as I your creator is beside you, with me there can be no fear , no failure for you are perfect in my eyes you are my most beloved of all, and I care for and watch over you.

Though you may not see I fight the battles you can not see, the spiritual battle between heaven and hell keeping the corrupt from you, do you not appreciate my sacrifice have I not Givin you plenty ? 

Felt like writing this

The hideous ways of what is being teached today, thought I'd stand up but I already fought today. Which way is the right way ? How much is to much? if we fall down and connect with every unwanted touch, hatred and such I got that much from these walls that cut us from what is in store for us .

Blood , fear and pure evil and such, this may be a place of wonders but the enemy lurks like a pool of darkness, spread throughout our lane and we are the only light that remains to stand

 don't need to be confirmed for my actions, for i have learned this life has its very own terms. hopes been burned and reactions have been joined in chaos and miss positions of over placed attraction.

put on earth to withstand total corruption were am i in this place of nothing?

here to seek and to save, sometimes it may not feel like you have done anything today to help the one who gave it all for you that day, but listen to these words i say even a mention of his grace can bring light into this twisted place, so remember you play a key role in the fight for our soul

Come enter, let not I man behind the judge but let my Father above .

Have people not seen? That there have been those who have walked from the Lord because the try to meet the churches standards ? Or try to reach the standards of those around them.

Come all who seek me the Lord commands, for actions and deeds will not give you right passage to my kingdom ! Repent for your sins and claim my name wherever you go tell of me show me in your heart believe in me and you shall enter my kingdom but only through my son Jesus

You drink that's fine, you smoke you're choice, you sleep with you're loved one even know it's before mirage doesn't effect me simply I don't judge and I don't expect to be judge by others when I see people do these things I don't even see it cause I don't go there cause I love people and I see beyond there mistakes, but there is one law I will always honor and I will pass judgment through the word of God and that is to love and respect anyone and everyone and to do your best to treat and honor all God's people, you lust big deal who doesn't we are human beings sure we shouldn't abuse lust, or abuse alcohol or abuse anything, but most importantly don't abuse God's children for the have every right to this world as you do.

Muslims , jews, atheist, short, small, challenged, crippled, old, young , black, white, Mexican, British, if there is one thing my mother showed me was to love and honor everyone as Jesus did, some people say I let people walk on me and throw me around, but I don't see it that way I see it as going beyond my flesh and taking hold of the greatest commandment to every bit written love thy neighbor as thy self, Jesus died not for me but for us we are family and all deserve a chance to see eternity

Feel like writing something about you 2, mom it is so different without you, as I lay here wishing you'd be near, it's not your health that I fear cause I know God is holding you near, but it's my heart that longs for your comfort once again.

Grampa are time was short but it felt like forever because the bond we had, it was like we had already knew each other from the start, those days of golf and moments of laughter touched my heart and now I know your with my mom together in a song of praise waiting for me to arrive.

I lost you both in the best of ways to heaven you have gone to stay, there is no doubt that the Kingdom roared at your arrival 2 angels brought together see you soon!

The way I've posted and my brutal honesty I feel, has lead some people's feelings about me astray and for that i am truly sorry, but in other words not sorry at all cause what would be the point of friends and love ones if the only care about you at your peak

t all started with madness eve picked up that apple causing Jesus overwhelming sadness ! The snake lucifer, his sickening lies and slithered still voice, draw them a astray so away the went from the garden, embarrassed by their nakedness ashamed with there choices, haunted by their mistakes and miss lead voices.

This is message is for those of you who have gone off your own way, you believe God makes no sense but have you looked around ? Have you ever thought about Satan and his plan to destroy your life that just maybe your being miss lead and you are exactly were the enemy plans for you to be, like a unborn infant with his life layer before a judgment call hopeless with no voice to speak so his parents speak death upon him? Are you allowing Satan to speak death over you're life ?

Are you angry because God has done this and he won't do this ? But have not once counted you're good health and wealth, or the fact you have a beautiful child, and that you have food on the table, that you have you're spouse or you're mother by you ? Have you completely put God behind you because you feel you have gone to far so you can never return ?

Truth be told don't let people around you or anything be the answer , you must be it and if you feel convicted or you feel God is calling you back run to him don't wait, ignore the people that stray you away for the only admit evil deeds and lies to you, to keep you from you're true happiness, come back give him a opportunity to renew your soul ! And see just how much he loves you and how much he really makes sense .

Remember people sin is fun and doing it your way is fun, but one day when you come down to the bottom and there is no way out who will you call on ? Or when death comes for you who will you pray upon ?

So I need prayer for my back and the decision that I must make . And here are my options 

1 God will heal me

2.learn to accept this will be a life long thing and learn to live with it and get a job accordingly that will fit my condition. 

3 surgery this is the one I am leaning the farthest from, do to it will be a very heavy surgery I will lost everything I work so hard for and it will disable some things I was able to do and also cause me to be weaker in back even more so as I get older .

4 there is a laser treatment that will kill my nerves not fixing my back but taking away the pain, this is the one I'm most for do to no heavy recovery time and it will get me out of pain, and also while I'm out of pain God could heal me later on please thoughts and comments !

Also need prayer for a bigger truck it's not a stressful issue or a rush , just would be a blessing , so on God's timing , and with the right financial decision .

Please come in sit down judge me criticize me , tell me what you think of me, is it not plane to see I don't care what you see ? I am me and that's what I want to be. If you don't like my music don't listen, if you don't like my shows don't watch, if you don't like my post get lost , I love the Lord , I listen to eminem , I watch walking dead, I pray, I'm who I am and that's all I should half to be , so please if not for me then for peace let me be

Sorry but the house is gone we are moving on, off we go to a strangers home, treated with so much love , though the pain was tough, we made it through the day moving place to place now we are finally home, little apartment place starting over. A few years go by every day the same old line but we are getting through and holing onto you o Lord.

I wake up that day news comes to my ears, my worst fear had came I never thought this way, keep your phone on, don't go back to sleep, do you hear the sirens that is your mom we got to go, 2 long days sitting waiting wondering will we say goodbye or has she already pass to the other side ? Then when that plug was pulled shatter apart the ones we use to know are not so close, anymore, our hearts we're thrown straight out the door, now we go through this emotional faze, it can never be the same.

Now here I am today, so afraid but yet so content, God Knows What Will Happen Around Me In Another 20 Years So Some Days I Just shed Some tears, A Few Years Is Like Yesterday, So Today All I Can Say Is I Been Through, The Flames And I'll Never Be The Same, So If You Catch Me Acting Kinda Strange Remember The Path I Walked To Get Here Today i guess that's all i got left to say

I'm really hoping that I can start a business and it take off, I think I can be blessed so much from it, through God, through staying healthy, making good money, and my belief is we need more people preaching outside the church, I wasn't called to be a pastor but a preacher and a preacher is so one I believe goes beyond that and reaches the people that need to hear and know about Jesus and through a business I can do that !

Lights down low a night of snow, as the moon glows, a silent flow of the wind hitting the window spark your mind, should I go or should I stay, this cold yet charming day, as the sun comes up and the ice melts away warmth comes to you almost instantly, suddenly you hear laughter and cheers can it be that summer is finally here?

Today exactly 2 years since my mom passed, thank you God for taking care of her and reuniting her with her family up stairs.

The day I lost you was the day I felt pain truly, those nights and weeks made my heart and soul so very weak, as I watch hoping you'd cling to life. A year goes by it seemed you had only just gone, now two years, sneeks up and the date catches my eye, the day I die will be of joy because I'll be with you once again in the sky.

I'm unique when I write, I am no longer weak, it's different it's the way that I speak, there is something different when my fingers touch the keys I feel at ease, it ain't competition it's a passion to express never the less it's what I feel inside.

And if died any moment my hope is that my words would be heard and my voice remembered this is who I am, I'll be writing till the end and singing till the last breath. Just a big person with a bigger heart, not afraid of the dark cause I'm to busy soaking in the feel of th stars .