saw you gazing the star's so i thought you might like to visit mars since our relationship goes bad faster then a ship in hyper speed, but when we landed the sand storm was off the chart kinda like our hearts, spent the day it was like a nightmare but it was worth the stay as long as you are there anyway, we took a walk found some aliens Extraterrestrial being's, weird part was the new our feelings connected in away that can't be displayed doing my best to keep our love from fading these creature make us look degrading but the showed us a whole new meaning , but this entire time we been led astray because these monsters are our demons and we let them take us a way.

i fell off the planet i couldn't find gravity but i manged to land it, woke up on a beach got a bucket heck lets sand it, the water climbing high up i damned it, see this fantasy i planned it, it is fantastic, ocean filled with debris lucky me, i had to swim in it, got tired so i got out of it ended up on a island of make believe so i drew a nice picture of who i would like to be and ended up sailing back out into the see, a lonely man sadly but i found out after this i was still me, so i gave up searching for a false reality and accepted the fact, i am 

it is complicated relationship have faded, someday's i feel obligated or maybe it is that i have been jaded, try to get myself concentrated, maybe it would if life didn't get me irritated.

i swear say what i say but each and everyday, i feel less of me and more of confusion this world has covered my eyes is this a illusion i swear i am committing treason and the question is for what reason you know ill be back next season cause i am out in the cold and it is freezing , enough with the future blessings enough of the teasing i am here for something more then the daily pleasing.

this interaction between heaven and hell it is our distraction look at the way we are acting, impacted love we lack that, succeed we already know that, stop i heard that, miss use the truth give me a minute ill show the proof because the hatred is through the roof, what will we do when all we have is me and you? we will half to become a crew, so get use to the fact, we are all in this act so lets play our role and plan our attack

Losing somebody ? What Is it ? How is it ? 

Is it different for single people then for combined people? 

Most think losing somebody is just the part when you lose them, but it changes especially when you don't have a family and you are still on you're own, it changes you're life completely, a transition a roller coaster of emotions, if I had to put it in words it is the root of all pain it is the source, it's like a 2 edged sword into you're stomach or a hook being torn out a black hole inside of you.

As comforting as simply saying you'll see them soon again, it doesn't exactly cover up the fact that you want them back, to some it happened and it's time to move on but for others it dug deeper and will take longer to heal

One of the hardest moments of losing a person is seeing the hurt and struggle of this around you that are experiencing as great of pain or greater this leaving enough weight as in its own

my version of my immortal.

i am so tired of being here, overwhelmed by my fear's, why did you half to leave? i wish that you would have stayed, cause you're passing still haunts me and i can leave it a lone.

these wounds do the heal? this pain is far too real, there is only so much that time can erase.

when i felt no worth you'd remind me, when i felt a lone you'd hold onto to me, you held me up through all of my days, and now you are gone but you have all of me .

you use to bring me joy and life now i am bound by being left behind, i see you're face all of the time, you're voice if i could just hear i have lost the sanity in me

these wounds do the heal? this pain is far too real, there is only so much that time can erase.

i have told myself that you are gone, and though the love you have for me is here, i feel alone all alone

my version of say something.

say something God i am giving up on you, ill be the one listening, anywhere i would of followed you, say something God i am giving up on you.

and i am feeling so lost
it's all in my head
i thought i had it all

say something God i am giving up on you, i am sorry that i didn't speak to you,anywhere i would of followed you,say something God i am giving up on you

and i will swallow my pride
you are the on that i need
and i am calling on you


say something God i am giving up on you, i am sorry that i didn't speak to you,anywhere i would of followed you,say something God i am giving up on you

say something God i am giving up on you.

Broken glass from empty bottles proven from cuts all over the bottom of your feet, what will we meet next ? Caught up in a horror movie set give me a minute let me collect my debt. Water stains from tears that have been shed all over you're pillow and bed, wake up every morning nearly dead.

Walls covered in red from the blood the enemy has drained you can't see it with plain view but through your inside you bleed eternally, do you're best to love sincerely but you are caught up in fear what happen to living fearlessly, seriously this is all delirious and in my mind I'm furiously trying to make sense of this silently, but it's so loud I can barely hear myself think the sin that runs deep this is just a glimpse into what I think.

Elliott Robert M-

Faces of despair, searching for something the can't find. lost the universe caught up in the atmosphere, so many things to fear this is so clear no need its impossible to be pure.

fighting with our self , falling from our inner being why is everything so over baring, its like everyone is watching waiting for the moment you fail but the are the reason you keep moving, wish for the ending but scared of the judgment, how distant will we get from one another when we all live the same and on one home .

elliott robert m.

so for now on so i don't get my writings taken or anything i am gonna put my signature after everyone 

also my blog total has reached over 2k !

If you need me I'll be in the corner running music at full capacity, because mentally I can't with stand this worlds satisfactory it discussed me. We are supposed to have patience but what if get killed tomorrow and people get left in sorrow, give me a second let me borrow sometime cause every time I right a line I feel like I might be wasting my time but it is the only way I can get this off my mind .

I think I'm out of my this worlds league, nothing I do satisfies it's needs, I'm caught up in its evil deeds, maybe I just some time my heart is not ready for tomorrow and neither am I , 70 maybe 10 years that's a long time to live, and a lot of time to be hurt so excuse me if sometimes I look like dirt

Don't try to read me or try to judge me , especially before you get a chance to know me, you got evidence well show me but know you're words are below me I don't care what faze you have to show me, I'm just me and that's all I'm gonna be

The violent sounds, and sleepless nights, the bullets whizzing by, moments passing by with each moment a chance to die, Things seen by the human eye, today I remember the man and women who layed down there lives

People truth is, I half to go the gym it's my therapy, it's what makes feel some sort of worth and like I am doing something, it's were I go when I'm depress and were I go when I'm missing someone , I let out all my feelings my thoughts my anger, and everything I put it into the gym. 

Some may say this not a good way to do it but people there are other ways that are worse I could just go drown myself in bottles or sex or throw everything away but instead I put it into what I love and that is being fit and healthy

Sometimes stepping out of you're way for somebody is worth everything cause it could be there last and even if it isn't you'll never regret it .

Which way did you go ? I have been counting on you, you said you'd be there but my biggest fear has steered me off into the dark, I use to be able to hear you're voice but now you're gone and it was you're choice

Do my best to avoid prison, risin my King had those nails drove into his hand and feet so we may be forgiven

I feel like when i wake up I'm still in a deep sleep, cause i can't seem to keep my story straight week after week I'm beat, the enemy never leaves it's like a drug, addicted self inflicting damage is this a sickness, I wish is was easy but if it was I'd probably be insane cause life would be to plane.

I'm not the same I was a year ago I'm a new me I do my best to open up so you can see me and I know that person inside of me wants to bust put and shout out letting everyone know he Is gonna make it out

My vision hasn't been clear lately , Father it seems like I'm a bomb and everybody should evacuate safely. You know my heart deeply and sometimes I feel like my spirit is asleep I find myself weak wondering how Do get back up on my feet, when you're right next to me .

I don't deserve the blessings this is just me and to the world I'm done confessing it's between me and you, you're love is what I should be resting on, I'm so not selfish but in everyway I am exactly that .Give me love and hope and I promise I'll use that to glorify you till the day you come back

I'm not afraid to admit my wrongs I Sin everyday I lust I say bad words, I sometimes ignore God actually way to much , I'm not perfect and I'm not above any one I just know were my heart is and it belongs to him , I always remind myself no matter how filthy I get I will still declare his name and wear his name on me , don't let the enemy take sin and use it to feel like you are not important. 

I've done counseling on and off and I still want to a little bit but people counseling or anything act of help other then direct contact with God can not change you completely you half to make a choice to be the way you want, you can't make me pray or make read, or make me see clean, I half to do that I half to come to a place in my heart and in my day we're I say God I'm done trying this on my own I need you

Tonight is my night so listen clear cause what you are about hear is intensity entering you're ear.
Spit words you say it is what needs to be heard but have you ever thought that is exactly what should not be spoken .

Let me give you token for you're desperation to say you're mind it's clear you don't even bother to think before you speak, honestly just give a try to be a better you a better me isn't the world bad enough as it is without us acting a fool and running down our kids

Put me in box use them pad locks , cause when I hit these lines it's gonna be something from the prehistoric time's. These haters try to relate but it was never a debate top of the food chain in every state, who needs the rates? 

Try to stop it but I'll block it, you say walk the walk but instead I talk it, this isn't upgraded words I don't know what you have heard mine are straight from stock clean out of the box .

You should not believe in God because susy says so, or because the world tells you too, or because it makes you look good.

Believing in God is not for anybody but you its a personal relationship and connection with the Father that created us .

You don't believe In hike because it makes sense or because you go to heaven but because he loves you and you love him .

People don't try to make sense o...f God and any though of that sort is purely Satan drawing a path away from God. If God made sense then there would not be a point he is suppose to be full of secrets and mystery . Give him another chance .

I am not asking you to go because of me or because your a bad person if you don't , but I love people and I don't want to see anybody in hell or to miss out on God . Give God another chance, not church, not pastor John, or because Jimmy says, go for him and for you seek him don't allow anger from man , to lead you from God just because you can.

We seem to miss the big picture we blame God for things and turn away but what about Satan ?? What is he is just a myth no he is the one that got you to think the way you did that made you walk away so do me a favor and snap the hell out of it and get made at Satan for once at the false prophets and the wrong , and stop blaming the person that loves you and embrace him!!!! He Will set you free he will give you love and take care of you better then any worldy pleasure can be.

And also people say it doesn't make sense this whole God forsaken place doesn't make sense it's doesn't make sense that my mom's gonna that I got delt a bad hand and that my childhood was trash it doesn't make sense that everything so hard and that I can't like myself, it doesn't make sense that we are here and why we die, and how come there is so much hate and pain.

People if we spent all our time thinking about what doesn't make sense we'd be completely insane

by my words and my actions some times this world causes friction and self infliction, you may not see him in everything that i do honesty from me to you. but one thing never seems to fail is when it comes down to the truth everybody knows he lives inside of me