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Me- the will hear me upstairs if i sing.

mom- so sing louder, sing your heart out

me-i am no good.

mom- don't say that about my son.

mom-God has something so big for you and stephanie both gonna be huge!

me-what is wrong?

mom- i just hate to see you i pain

I hate when i want to talk to mom but i cant cause she always had the right thing to say and i could really use her opinion on stuff right now

God is victorious, that's not according to my gospel it's straight from Jesus and his apostles, this world seems hostel tord love maybe there are afraid of what is above, or maybe our selfishness has brought us to not want to submit to someone beyond us but let's be honest he is the strongest and he made you in my mind there's no debate I hope one day most or all can relate , I need to be more set on him in my mind cause I keep walking walking on forbidden Lines, I complain I want out but forget to do something about what is holding and keeping me out of reaching the inner me successfully but my will to be free is sincere , I just need God to interfere and make me hear his word clear and to give up my doubt and fear.

Take the wheel steel my heart cause I'm beginning to see but so blindly I love him I know I do Jesus cut these chains release these shackles don't let it be in vain I've already felt the shame , tame the enemy he thinks he owns the fame but his lies are all the same , maybe so I am stained from my past but when I get out at last I'll sustain through this with your everlasting guidance comfort me and become one with me .

These walls trap beyond sanity made by humanity, broken fantasy self implicitly tell me where to find dignity, I don't connect well with this place I face time seems to just rewind really I'm fine, do my best to be kind I see all my broken signs the chains that bind which way is the exit cause I'm feeling hectic from my thoughts that have been so selective , I'm here somewhere just me vs my flesh trying but it's like as if I am Def blind stuck inside a solid line, peace comes but feels over rated, only last and it's value can be stated, opinions I've got some to just there not of you, I need to speak to me personally but I can't cause I'm me and that would mean I need two of me .

Stay strong I know it's been so long but God is never wrong

If I take my time to know you will it be worth it when I show you ? There is a lot you may not know but till I can trust you I will not show, there are many ways to me but only one person you see, alive I haft to be there is no choice you see , wanting to give up does that make me weak or what I believe it just proves a point God is the only thing holding me up, why use somebody with no drive to move I guess it's because I see things beyond what most do.

My mind is constant I think even when I'm not I don't care much about the clock or the day numbers and dates are lost fate, but what happens in those are what raised my curiosity, I'm not the person with the biggest problems mine most likely are small to most people who take time to read Em all, what is at stake my time debates itself I'm not afraid of much just disappointed in far to much, it's hard to relate with people because the don't get it , every time you Try to speak the cover it in praying or what your suppose to do and yes that's is prime but seriously use a new line I would really like just for somebody to listen and relate.

I'm not what my message have put me to be , I believe some people See me as a lost cause , a joke lost in a position to help nobody not even myself which I have my days granted but my personality is what's in me and if no one likes the real me see if it will faze me to be real sometimes I don't even like me , but I still get up everyday and do my best and I call on God not just to be blessed but for many things I keep my Faith to him I'm not sure how I fit in the role for a preacher but it must be some beyond this world's teaching cause I have been chosen.

The son bled so satans urge could not be fed , he rose from the dead , that maybe you could be lead , to salvation instead of drowning in a lost nation just confused people with no foundation , Jesus brought us the truth through sacrifice so it's plane and simple here is the advice it's all in the proof us a lone is enough perfection at its best are hull figure is a amazing and so far beyond our self just one part of us is supernatural can't be completed through are thin minds, that's the problem this place thinks it knows it all but the fill themselves with false truth and end up and a roof and everything collapse around leading them to there death and there's no hope or anything left , but if you cling to the one who is and always has been you can still win but don't let that negative side of you win

You feel the hairs on your chest stand up and hear the noise all around you cant you see this place has mislead you your filling up on what Satan has fed you this world's has taken wrong and made It right and has taken right and made it wrong people try to drowned themselves out of the truth but the matter of this is beyond your comprehensive mind , this is not a cheeses line or a cheap bottle of wine why are you so worried about time we. You have no control sorry but Budah and the totem pole are just not gonna cut it speak lies just shut it I need time to cut it out of my thoughts cause nobody seems to connect the dots stuck in a flock why pretend to be shocked everybody around accepts there fate cause the don't stand up so the meet there date, in which way can we relate if your not one to debate I'm not fake just brutally honest that's why these words are like sonic booms when the hit your rooms it's never to soon to share the truth so I'll collect Em from the ruins and set on my journey and fine peace in him within

Break me take it all from me , put me in the sun but before I burn up I'll be saved by the son, these struggles weigh a ton that's usually on the run but he pick me and told me I was not done.

Pick up your feat only person who believes your weak is you climb to the top and don't stop open up that upper door makes sure it is not locked , why is it so hard to knock the devil back and tell him where he is destined to be at.

Take Your Time But Don Waste It Got Pain Why Don't You Face It Then Take God's word and replace it, don't be so compact on the fact that you lack that'd why the King came to pick up the slack so we could live and forget all of that

I drop these notes see cause I'm me I am not afraid to express myself nor am I to call it what is wrong , I seek to save so if it seems harsh I'm old school I tell Em straight from the book without the what nots, not the coolest kid on the block that's not a shock, most the time it's the kid in the corner with the royle honor, you ain't seen my play yet but be sure God just has not displayed it yet, my soul is made of sticks so when God says it's time for all of which he made me to be he will set it on fire, I don't seem tough cause I'm way to nice but don't mistake that for a weakness that's a false call, I'm aggressive only when needed mostly for those who are soon to be depleted or who lie about the truth, don't get me started a day protecting the ones you love if it comes down to it my strength is supplied from above, I was built with stand the destruction end time material , maybe I don't Bible thump, or help enough but there is one thing for sure I remember his Name and never denie it and always call on it , not ashamed to proclaim his name , pain I know it maybe a little to we'll but just means the enemy will never get in cause the more the beat me the closer I become to my King

t's si easy for people to say it's time to move on, but does that person, drive by the hospital every week ? and every store and every place reminds them of th thousands of times the visited that place with the person the lost, or every Disney movie reminds them, maybe if I had said goodbye maybe that is why, I'm not as broke as I was but I morn all the time and always will, so unless you've walked in my shoes or close to it, then your move on means nothing to me

I've lost a house and a lot of things I've owned, I sat In a hospital while my mom had a brain tumor removed, I lived with a stranger, we started over from scratch, I lost my mom with no goodbye, lost my grampa after a year went by, delt with harsh things people have done and struggle with my own demons that nobody knows, and there is so much more, so yea if I'm a little depressed or passed off sometimes cut me some slack, I turned out.pretty freaking good for what I was delt