So you seen my trial ? My post but now its time for me to boast, cause though it took me till my knees to see the trust I need so that I could be healed, though the enemy plucked at my flesh, the high King picked me up off the ground and lit the fire in me , so I am ok and I will be cause his Love is strong and I declare healing, no matter my trial or my feeling ill will never turn away nor will I ever stop believing in him.

This is why I was made a soldier for him, tough as the come and no  matter the pain I stand and declare him victorious.

Now its time to pick up my Faith and lift those who need me up
Lets just say I am back not on my own strength  but by grace let him rain forever !!

Don't give up remember you serve a better purpose then the world marks you for, your unique and if there is hope for me there is for for you !

I am a good guy, you can see it in my eyes I got my things why would I lie? And yes I am shy but when I pick up the keyboard and I here his words coursing through my vains, and his breath breathing in my chest I feel so clean, maybe I see things differently but atleast I am me what is my life gonna be lets just wait and see.

I have had many test but i still clame myself blessed rap in his arms so warm and safe I feel like no harm can effect me, cause I am free from the enemy just as simple as taking a pee haha silly me , that's my humor cause life is tense and glumor but I am saved from its wicked ways man if you could see the way I do when I type just no I am always there for you and family anytime just say ill be on it like its my job with no restrictions so true and God will remove your addiction

my writing instagram edition/short and sweet
Jesus freed us , and he helps us put back the pieces that are heart lost during life's test, but hold in there cause the best is yet come God is gonna have you on the run when he bring's your purpose to the surface you will be laying out verses not... only in churches, but in the streets were you will help the weak so pick up your feet and give it all you got for a week and see how your needs will meet beyond your expectation , when you get in to a serious relation with the maker of all the creations its beyond any world sensation knowing he is your love and motivation. stand up for your belief don't let the world blur your vision and make you get caught up in bad decisions God hits with precision to save your from the devil's evil vision that is why our God was risen to keep your from satans prison.

Satan try to stop me you feel like your on top of me but seriously you have nothing on me, cause God owns me and he never leaves my side and when he looks at me its with open eyes even when I cry he warms my tears and says hush my son there is nothing to fear, listen and hear my voice so clear and loving , he wants me for me so enemy I suggest you flee

My life is like a emotional rollercoaster but God showed me that he can hold me and now i feel like I am on top of the world , I've seen it the thing in me I always knew he own me though there was something I been missing , which was his blessing, love, and affection thinking about him has become a addiction not suprising since he held me before and his resurrection I call getting change not in a strange way but in a not ordinary play of his ultimate display on that day he died so that you could be.

Straight out of my heart and from my finger tips I bring you incouragment that should make you feel more fulfilling cause God is sustaining the goodness in me so he can help you out of your pain and suffering cause all he wants is you 

I been down that road depression is my middle name confession is my daily session, but don't be so down God sticks around he can help you out and make you sound and put your feet on solid ground, your unique not weak so let your mouth speak the words he has for you that is so sweat

If I wake up and smile just for awhile, I believe it would be worth while.

If I bless some besides me, i think it would change them and th could see this life was ment to be.

If I fight for what is right it might help this world unite.

If I hold her tight and love her right she will be my love my only one at night.

If I follow him I am sure to win, his mercy has washed away my sin

See devil I am sick of crap, my God he is bigger then that so lay off my back what's that ? Haha I don't haft to listen to what you say cause everyday is a new day, and Jesus layed his life down to say that I am his and he loves me the same even the way that I am.

I am done trying to win something that has already been won, he is built in the structure of my so your see I am destined for eternity brought up from bothing to be a light to the people that need him who is in me, I thank him for allowing me to be some one who people can see has been through tragedy but still stand for the life of humanity. You say I am a Jesusfreak ya that is me and I have that pride in me and I am not ashamed of who I was made to be

lately my writing has been rap, i can't rap it so i just right it, been listen to some m n m.

fuel me please keep on doubting me because seriously there is no stoping me my rym's are straight out of standard times, i know you can relate this is not a debate my words are to speak to all even the people that know what is like to fall and be kick while down hear that sound ? of those haters all around, forget em the got nothing accept false ground tide up and bound to there own mind set.

reflect this is about to get preset like johnny depp on set , the can try to out act you and me but honestly this not a act that's a fact truthfully it's much more then that, so relax what's that you have on your back drop the stress and be blessed i confess my word's are of a man depressed i don't mean to always confess what i am thinking to all you i need to give it a rest.

here is a little free style for light and hope

you see that light ? in the middle of the night star struck by the sight of his might, you can feel his presence so much your chest is feeling tight, but don't fear fold into his arms he will give you wings to fly , i don't deny i have been mad at the King in the sky, but me and him are straight there is no debate i hope you can relate , he has brought me through so much never leaving nor forsakes me and i am so glad he accepts me even through my tragedy, that is why i seek him and this is why i believe in him.

i work for my bills

i spread the word faster then a forest fire

i got faith

i help out at my church

i tryed i job and believe me i did not give up if people would stop pretending to know the pain i have the would understand.

my fort minor remember the name version. 

or those of you out there that want to know what it is like to believe , its like this.

this ten percent trust, fifteen percent word five percent courage, fifty percent Faith 
and a hundred percent reason to remember his name.

he does not want the hate he just wants to be heard, weather its from you mouth or your heart,
his love is unlike everybody else, alone in spite some people refuse to know him, but he still loves em,
he knows your name, its not about what you have done, your save by the son its already done,
focus on the son , so his word can spread like the sun that means when he moves around talks picking it up.

the devil who is he anyway? he talks to much, never stopin his relentless attacks, but many mistake him as not a threat
but he is the master of destroying the weak, now it all connects don't trust him he has no respect he is only focused on
on making you a wreck, his plan is beyond reach and when it all unfolds we must hold on to what we know.

this is twenty percent prayer
80 percent PAIN
ill be a hundred percent clear God is real, who would of thought he would send his son to consume the flame
and i heard him spreading the word , this is not a game messiah is his name came back took his people by suprise
he loves you why do you have the stupidest excuses, he is the truth now everybody is praising him from the rooftop
i heard he is even letting people into his kingdom.

they call him KING of the jew's and he is shining light through you making you feel hot, found him shocking everyone
on the block! he is just and he is right, the type people want to glorify his name, and haters try to block,
from the start he has been in the making of this universe, he has a Father that leads him in his time, there are
equaly stoked to see you succeed.

he is not your every God on the block, he made you and he was always on top
he knows how to work miricales making the dead walk, he often gets flase thing blamed on his name
but he stays the same, he is the living God give him sometime and he will give you the proof, him
and his angels ar known all around the are dedicated hundred percent

nobody knows why he loves us so much or why he died to save our lives, its seems like he always has you on his mind
because he works on saving you all the time, your design was written and he said it is fine, without even trying
how does he do it ?

this ten percent trust, fifteen percent word five percent courage, fifty percent Faith
and a hundred percent reason to remember his name.

this is twenty percent prayer
80 percent PAIN

this is twenty percent prayer
80 percent PAIN

this ten percent trust, fifteen percent word five percent courage, fifty percent Faith
and a hundred percent reason to remember his name.

On my way from helping at lifepoint, first though, I brought y favorite gym shorts there, but I was not aware of painting, so I got it on my shorts, then said its ok, if I am doing this by faith, God will replace my shorts.

So I left to walmart, when I pass through, I saw some people at home depot , a worker lady and a older man, I drove pass, and then I felt like God tug my shoulder, I ...turn around and went back I rushed over and said you need help?. I helped them load 50 blocks , the the lady laughed and said you need a job here, so I said would you like one of my dads website card he just published a book, she said I'd love one ill follow you back to your car, on the way back there was another older gentlemen that need help, I said ill help you out, so me and the work jessica, help load his stuff, I got done and the man turn and handed me a 20$ bill, I said what is this for he said lunch. I turn and looked at jessica I said if you step out in faith you will be blessed. She took her glove off and shaked my hand, she said thanks so much then I gave them both a card, she then said are you where you Coming in? I said no I just happen to see you guys as I was driving by , so I helped, she said are you serious? As she stood in unbelief, I said you don't see help anymore and I love to help people I got it from my dad and familySee More

you see i did not get the normal life that you see, grown up by age 15 , seen all there is to see by 7 i mean literally , fought the enemy since the day this world had heard of me i still am in the same battle it used to be just cause no one sees does not mean i am not struggling, most kids my age would not be standing not even giving a helping hand, see i know what it is to lose all you have, i ...got the wound of losing the one you love, i know what its like to feel worthless and to be broken and i know what its like to be forgotten, is this shocking nope i stop being shock the day i fell down and stop.

biggest story on the block, Faith like a rock, i keeping going none stop, i know how some people feel when the want it to end, i have been down that thread, wishing i was dead, even tempted to kill myself over this period of time, but that is in the past but i know if i did not know God i would have a long time ago .

i know how it feels to feel worthless useless and like your failing the people around you, i know to much how it is to hate yourself, cause i have spent most my time since i could remember doing so.

i am not a man of steel or a perfect example i struggle and fight with enemy i don't devote as much time to God as i do myself. i lust, i say bad words.

and to be honest i am just so dam tired i have put everything i have this last few years into this life, yea maybe i don't work 100% of my life and i play a lot of games, just cause i don't do surtain things does not mean i don't have hard times or a hard life.

i wake up extremely tired i got to bed tired, i think 100% of the time about my mistakes and how if i could just change i could be the person everybody thinks i should be, i am brain shot, heart broken, wounded, hurt , upset confused, angry, disappointed , sad, depress.

but if there is one thing that there is no way in hell anything can remove from me is my Faith, yea i am not the saint, but i spread the word of God i carry me weight with my shirts and bumper stickers and i never turn my back on him, i stay strong through it all
not including all this bull crap happen by 18, so next time someone pulls the bullshit about i should be working i should be doing this or that, take my shoes and start freaking walking.

i love God i have Faith i have a heart for people. but sometimes it seems like everything around me is supporting the enemy's plot to defeat me

yea i said bad words, i am a adult my facebook, and i am entitled a few words now and then.

night people if this was to much honestly i am gonna be straight out now, i am done with this little girl crap, working my writings around everybody's feelings !!
and gosh i cant wait to be out of pain its driving me crazy

Umm this is my presentation. .... guess what's back again the loss of a love one that sick defect , when it hits I'm a wreck cause it all reflects and I feel like I am about to lose all respect when I go into secret side of mind.

Just plane and simple gonna tell it how it is, cut the kid stuff this is not a act, infact its way more then that tell her or him or them your love them, cause from my ...view you say its hard but you still have them, so stick to it and just do it, cause your not sure when you will lose it and you will be caught up in the sound of depressed music , why the enemy begins the fusing so the can start abusing you, cause, loosing somebody is like a eternal payne like your bleeding relentlessly so it maybe time is a significant thing, but believe me when it hits you it breaks you and shakes you and makes you feel like your dead inside

we need to rise because the enemy is stealing the real me the real you, the new thing is to give up because this world is centered on what you feel, tell the devil no deal! because God has a place for you and it is marked as living for eternity price is free so don't wait to be a new you that can change people around you.

time makes us blind we spend most of it worried how we will get by , and h...ow we have not much left and we forget that his death has set us to another breath, so don't list to nonsense put up your fence of defense and bring the peace to these peoples mind set, rest later , because satan is no
negotiator, he is a infiltrator and he will destroy your plans for later.

stand up this is not a pity party the enemy is not a joke he will slit your throat as soon as he can reach your boat , ruthless and no mercy, so pick up your word and your Faith and deny his presence in your life