Sometimes I just sit inside my head and let my insecurities run on replay as I ponder my next move in society. I draw blanks for my direct personality I walk blinded by the cruel truth of reality. Though some take me as a fool one who is not smart or who does not pay attention fails to see the fight on the inside of this dark wnemy names depression.

I am not looking to be an obligation when I walk in a room the only person is me I will be impersonating, I am not fake so why are you waiting? Love is pure this is not a debate so please stop debating. The enemy gets on my nerves it is so fustrating, four walls covered up in all these photos of devestation God removed them, and started painting renewed the walls like a blank canvas my sins are no longer hanging. Only person I will be blamming is myself, cut down the ropes.. balance isnt my thing, so please do not mistake me for another joker.. 52 cards, and every card I draw cant be played, distinctly I sit respectively, picking my battles I do this selectively. Pitty me no need I ain't looking for the old me. Face to face I stand, picture perfect never happened its all in Gods hands. My emotions have been my weakness sad part is you will all be juding, when the truth is strong people wear the truth on their shirt like a over used button, forged in fire taken to another level my heart burns brighter. Flight or right?, naw I am in the middle, caught between devices holding onto God these battles are priceless. Building character precisely God has a plan, and it will all pan out nicely, all in time I wait nightly, and I do not let my feelings go lightly, in the end he renews, and ignites me. Glory to God.

In these times in comeplete darkness, we walk slowly through as we feel the cold touch against our skin, each foot step echoes all around, and nothing else can be heard accept your thoughts swirling around. Right when the hope you had is lost a light flickers on, the voice of a savior passes over you like a sweet song, and you find yourself in peace in the midst of black the King has always had your back.

Sometimes in life we jump to conclusions, we find easy ways out.. But what if God asked you to sit in the dark? In a place you have never been, and to be still would you? I feel like God is challenging me to face my fears, and allow him to do work in my situation. One of the worlds biggest fears is the unknown, one of Gods favorite times to work in our life is the times we are in these postions, and the only option we have is Him.

My heart is a mirrior reflecting every single one my fears, open the door everything around me is confusion golore. I have lot to say so I display it with nothing held back, I mean... I am real so what can I say?, socially acceptable?, I am just being me.. talking to God is how I relate, I wonder how he invisions me. I do not take credit, I earn it these goals are beyond me, but my hope I am wearing tightly on me, you could say I have a gift, I can write for hours, and never miss a beat!, hold up I need a minute to breath. My mind is racing these words you best be tracing, never been afraid of the enemies that I will be facing. God in my heart, the world scared onto my chest, this bucket is heavy from all the tears that I have shed my performance days are over, the curtain is closed I am here to be myself.