I get the shakes from all of my mistakes. bundled inside like a conspiracy ride. who is me? were I am I?, I feel connected to the top but I drop out of the sky. perhaps a fallen warrior calling out for rest and but i don't want to be blessed just to see who I am really and to salience the voices in my head before I am completely dead

I'm not who think I am, it's different within me, so don't be shocked if it seems you don't know me, show me how well you do but If you only knew what is true it would blow you away and leaving me here fading away

as I finished the last few pages. of heaven is for real, chills ran down my spine and my eyes began to water. a book that brought a whole new picture of the Kingdom of God and even to the evil that dwells among us. I believe anybody and everybody should read this it has forever touched my heart! 
atheist and non believers of all types I challenge you today, to read this book or watch the movie, after all if he is not real you have nothing to fear, also watch God is not dead. give it a try , if not it just goes to show he I surely real other wise it would be a simple task...

she looked across the table at our oldest son, colton, what do you want people to know from your story? without hesitation, he looked her in the eye and said I want them to know heaven is for real!!.

Can't you see what is inside me the pain that drives me I how far I have come it brake my heart just in knowing how much suffering this world has to offer.

I know that I been foolish with my problems and my choices I can't take them I am no longer in that moment I can't seem to find my way out of what has got ahold of everything I'm trying not to be.
It's a hard place it's a hard life.

All I know is Jesus loves me I know he is holding me right now I can hear his voice it's right above me he Will never leave never leave me alone, and I know it's kind of funny that things seem so distant but I thought I'd try I feel him right near me and I'm doing my best to see his ways and glory of how I pray he will see me through.

GOD I am thankful for your mercy and your grace. It feels like some times people don't get it it's not just what's happened it's what inside my head, but I am not dead I am alive in you and I am going to make it through.its a hard place, it's a hard life
Its a hard place it's a hard life

There was a man in the dessert his thirst was beyond comprehension. As the storm began the sand raging at unbearable speeds, he called out with all he had left God let me bare this storm, his last breath blew out in the wind a sudden moist substance touched his lips suddenly he felt power begin to shoot through his body and it was like he was on fire but in a good way. When the storm cleared and he stood to his feet he looked up to see accusers, satans minions laughing and mocking him saying he will never be free, he lifted his head to the sky and utter a cry Father have I been forsaken?

When the ground begin to rumble underneath his feet and the enemy begin to stumble the all fell down and sank down into the sand, but the man was left standing, he spoke these words, why O God? have you spared me?? I'm unworthy of life I have been unfaithful I've made choices I still do. a voice of thunder shot Into his ears , each of these accusers are your sin Satan's minions, when I died for you on the cross all sin sank to the bottom of the earth these holes and sand that collapsed are a example that you are debt free from all your troubles for I have already forgivin and declared you mine.

The man then took his hat off, threw his sandals off to feel the sand standing there he droped on his knees and gave thanks for even though he was filthy God saw him clean, the man then walked on praising the King of Kings rejoicing and his thirst was eternally quenched.

People sometimes we feel like we been fighting a battle for years weather it's last or depression. But truth is everyday is a new day the past is not to be counted, not even 1 second ago for the past is the past and the present is now, when God forgives you its gone when your repent your slate is clean. The enemy likes to say we'll look you been lusting or being depressed for 2 years! People when Satan comes at you with that tell him no for that is lie for my sins of my past are no longer a part of me, for I have a repented and God has heard me.

Don't let the enemy rob your life and God's plan because your shame guilt and pain comes down on you for therefore there is now no condemnation for those who live in christe Jesus. The enemy likes to make you believe your on a leash but really you've been free all this time now go with a desire to be free don't worry about the future and if you stumble God has already seen it, it does make it right but we are not to punish ourself for God died so we may live

If I go crazy would you still accept me or disown me?? If I told you what I know would you call me brother or ask who are you?? If I'm not who you think I am is that a bad thing??

So many twist no need for locked fist, this love is bliss my mind is a risk take my hand no wait it might be a trick, to bade this ain't a chick flick. Stuck in what? A hole or maybe a bowl of sin, how do I find myself within when I can't even win these days are growing thin but maybe I'm just finding out what is there to win?

This is my legacy I post these words like a trilogy hit that punch line and you gotta wait for the next I'm sure your wishing it was sooner then the next, when I connect I can flex my mind beyond any 1 rhythm, haters send Em, I got time to get even with Em, what level I'm already at the top so if we are going forward turn it up a notch 

Get on my Wagon the hatred I've been dragging, so what you want I'll Probably agree here why don't I sign me over you can toss me off to the abyss if it all will stop.

It doesn't come to a shock for me when you say you don't like me or mock at me, make up dirty talk about me cause don't you see I already beat you to the punch line, it's just me and me in the ring see it's me I am the enemy I don't like what I see or what sometimes I see in Me, call it a tragedy but I call finding the problem a victory.

Open up that curtain, whipe the grief off your face, look at me we are one in the same, different struggles same ending, working on putting up our defenses it would be easier if we couldn't love, why does pain exist? Connect to me everybody is a reflect of me what you see I see what I feel you feel, keep it real the evil attends to point you away .

When did we forget that we are family? When did this world forget it's about us all we are one, we are not meant to be alone, cut the group act laying down a loving fact, maybe the reasons no one has your back is because your always face forward. Give me a act to follow somewhere to push forward.

Hatred in our voice, corruption in our ears, self gratification in our actions, what time of ground are we on? We are all walking Un evenly keep on being what your mind finds to be binded into a squiggly line but try to remind yourself we connect to eachother through him who? The one and only planted us to unite but this place has turn us against eachother not its a all out war against our bothers and sisters .

So I parked in the handy cap last night at safe way it was late and I was exhausted and it was raining , so I get out and get to the door and the side I parked on was locked so I I had to walk further, when I got out here is the morale of story .

I felt like God is saying he preserves a spot for us a spot in his kingdom in his army , but sometimes we want to be closer so we get ahead of ourself and park in the front and miss out on all things he had in the back, people it does matter spiritually where we park, we can skip past are blessings and people who need us or we can take the back seat and learn and do God's will, sometimes a door is locked because it's the only way you'll listen

Sometimes when people are hurt and going through a really hard time we can act on it in the wrong way, like try to slap it out of Em and tell them what we think, but people sometimes all the need is love and a little understanding some people deal with things differently

I was praying to Jesus may you forgive, but truth is he had already gave so it was a gift I had already received, point me to the grave sign me to save you think it will hold me? How so if the King in me had defeated death therefore his children won't ever be put to rest eternity blessed that's why we confess his greatness, die anyday for his word I'm willing to lay it all on the line no reward needed Jesus already succeeded when he called us out for freedom now we just count the days until we can see him